Decreasing

   "He must increase, I must decrease." (John 3:30)

   I know the above verse speaks truth, but I find it hard to get me out of the way so it can be true in my life.

   This is brought home to me as I write this blog. The initial purpose of the blog was to journal my thoughts to God as I read the Oswald Chambers' devotional for a particular day.

   But then I tend to get right in the way by thinking too much about what it will sound like to a reader, and too little about communicating to God my thoughts (and mostly questions). Who gets the glory for any good that is written? If people come up and say, "I read your blog and it was full of great insights" (no one has done that anyway), is the verse reversed, and I get the increase.

   If I deflect any praise and say that God gets any glory for what I have done, I can be speaking like I know the truth of how it should be, but do I say it to appear humble? I know from experience that I can be proud to be humble.

   So we are back to the pride issue once more. It is a constant battle with me, even if I do not look like it to others. God knows the heart, and I want Him to see that mine is attuned to Him. I want to see my glory in myself decreasing and His glory in my life increasing.

   Again, recognizing the problem is the easy part.........