Frustrations

   What do I do when frustration hits?

   Here is my scenario from this morning:

   wake up early to read, reflect in my journal, and post my blog
   struggle with Chambers writing and its application to my life
   decide to delve into another book that is on my computer
   spend an hour reading
   get a phone call to take care of some things before noon
   realize that I don't have enough time to finish my "quiet" time

   Now, I am retired, and that means having enough time to do what I most want to do in any given day. Today I most wanted to have some time to think. I am in the process of rereading a book by Billy Graham's grandson who is a pastor down in Florida. The title is "Do I Know God", and is a practical exercise in reflecting on the true meaning of "knowing God".

   There are times in my life, today being one of them, that I feel certain that I know about God, but lack that certainty that I really do know Him, personally. Taking the time to think all of that through again today became my goal for this morning, and I was about halfway through this little book, when life intervened.

   So, I forget Chambers and his words for today, and write about what is on my heart as I move toward that task that thrust itself into my early day. God knows what I wanted to do, and that will have to do for now. He also knows the outcome of the rest of my morning and my day. Nothing happens on its own, there is a purpose for things that come into my life.

   Now if I will keep my eyes and heart open as I move through the day there are some things out there that God wants me to see, that could be more important to this spiritual life than what I had planned.

   Perhaps, at the end of the day, I will better understand some of the "whys" of that changed schedule.

   God, please open my eyes to see You today