Soldier On

   Chambers sometimes uses the expression "Soldier On", and, although he does not use it in this reading, it is certainly implied. I believe this is an English expression that means to continue to do something in a determined way, even though you don't understand why and may not even succeed. This appears to be an action that goes right along with today's devotion:

   "There are times in your spiritual life when there is confusion, and the way out of it is not simply to say that you should not be confused. It is not a matter of right and wrong, but a matter of God taking you through a way that you temporarily do not understand. And it is only by going through the spiritual confusion that you will come to the understanding of what God wants for you."

   Chambers' admonition in all of this confusion is to "Stand firm in faith, believing that what Jesus said is true, although in the meantime you do not understand what God is doing. He has bigger issues at stake than the particular things you are asking of Him right now."

   There is a gospel song with the lyrics:

   "So when you don't understand
   When you don't see His plan
   When you can't trace His hand
   Trust His heart"

   This seems to be the sum total of it all. God wants the best for me, and He knows the future, so why not trust the One who cares, to lead each step, every day, even though I can't see or understand.

   Here I am, at this stage of my life, still trying to understand, still confused a lot of the time, still seeking Him, still wanting to know the big picture, still, still, still...

   But then the words come to me..

   Soldier On....