"When you do get through to abandonment to God, you will be the most surprised and delighted creature on earth; God has got you absolutely and has given you your life. If you are not there, it is either because of disobedience or a refusal to be simple enough." (Oswald Chambers)
Abandonment to God is to trust Him fully in every area of my life. I know I am not there, because I can see it in several areas.
One of the major things in a life of retirement is money, and the main question seems to be, "will I outlive my finances?". So I plan and calculate how much I need to have saved so that Mayre Lou and I will be able to live, and enough for her when I am gone.
This is not all bad I know, but I also realize that I want to live like I am doing now, with enough to enjoy our time in these years ahead, however many they might be. Then I think about how much we have saved and know that we could do a lot of things with it rather than spend it on ourselves.
Do I believe God when He promises to take care of those who put their faith in Him? Do I really believe that? I say I trust God, but, if I do, why don't I live like it?
The Bible teaches that God owns it all, and that I am just a steward of what He has entrusted to me. Am I guilty of taking my talent and hiding it in the ground?
All of my questions seem rhetorical, I know the answers, I just have a hard time getting them from my brain to my heart.
Can I really trust God? Can I abandon my plans for a promise?
Oh, that I could and would.
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